Borman

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 16:59:28 GMT

squirrelface was here!

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 03:47:38 GMT

XcoreyonfireX: we need to talk
xxprogressxx: are you breaking up with me?

xxprogressxx: i need to get better at turning myself on
XcoreyonfireX: dont i turn you on?

Paint it Pink 29: why is there chinese?
Paint it Pink 29: maybe the better question is..why is there a giant rooster..

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 14:27:28 GMT

be my koolaid: eric now seriously
be my koolaid: what the helll do you smoke

She didn't like my bard...

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 06:09:57 GMT

we are dorks

xxprogressxx (1:53:16 AM): its getting too easy
HearTheStaticof1 (1:53:34 AM): yeah
HearTheStaticof1 (1:53:34 AM): i know
HearTheStaticof1 (1:53:40 AM): we kicked ass
xxprogressxx (1:53:46 AM): i think we need to start coordinating our strategies together
HearTheStaticof1 (1:53:47 AM): we dominated them
HearTheStaticof1 (1:53:53 AM): yeah i know
xxprogressxx (1:54:20 AM): im going to stick with the goths from now on
HearTheStaticof1 (1:54:28 AM): i like the spanish
HearTheStaticof1 (1:54:30 AM): lol
xxprogressxx (1:55:10 AM): we need to work on your speed, but what im thinkng might work
xxprogressxx (1:55:41 AM): i have a strategy with the goths where i can have about 20 huskarls 25 minnutes into the game
xxprogressxx (1:56:02 AM): 20 is enough to take out a town center or castle
HearTheStaticof1 (1:56:21 AM): how long was that game?
xxprogressxx (1:56:25 AM): so ill go and take out the firs t guys town center and castles
xxprogressxx (1:56:27 AM): i dont know
xxprogressxx (1:56:50 AM): then you come in and kill off the villagers with your conquistadors
HearTheStaticof1 (1:57:18 AM): conquistadors rock
HearTheStaticof1 (1:57:26 AM): i love canons
xxprogressxx (1:57:32 AM): yeah
xxprogressxx (1:57:43 AM): get my strategy though
HearTheStaticof1 (1:57:49 AM): sort of
HearTheStaticof1 (1:57:57 AM): so i do everything like normal
HearTheStaticof1 (1:58:01 AM): try to get to castle age
HearTheStaticof1 (1:58:03 AM): asap
xxprogressxx (1:58:07 AM): yes
xxprogressxx (1:58:24 AM): and try to have about a dozen conquistadors at 30 min
HearTheStaticof1 (1:58:43 AM): ok we need to time things
xxprogressxx (1:58:57 AM): i go in, tkae out all the town centers, towers and castles, then move on to the next civ
xxprogressxx (1:59:09 AM): then you go to the one i just hit and finish them off
HearTheStaticof1 (1:59:20 AM): ok
HearTheStaticof1 (1:59:27 AM): that sounds like a pretty good plan
HearTheStaticof1 (1:59:48 AM): are u going to take out things that make amry dudes
HearTheStaticof1 (1:59:56 AM): stables and shit
xxprogressxx (2:00:05 AM): as much as possible
HearTheStaticof1 (2:00:09 AM): good
HearTheStaticof1 (2:00:13 AM): that will be a help
HearTheStaticof1 (2:00:36 AM): did u attack green in the beginning?
xxprogressxx (2:00:44 AM): no
HearTheStaticof1 (2:00:46 AM): nice
HearTheStaticof1 (2:00:57 AM): then i snuck up on green big time
HearTheStaticof1 (2:01:06 AM): i took out green in like 5 mins
HearTheStaticof1 (2:01:12 AM): its was great
xxprogressxx (2:01:17 AM): he didnt look to impressive by his score
HearTheStaticof1 (2:01:31 AM): yeah but it was still pretty kool how i did it
HearTheStaticof1 (2:01:54 AM): i found a place with a lot of deer so i brought over a few villies and an amry to guard them
HearTheStaticof1 (2:02:03 AM): then built a caste and a towncenter
HearTheStaticof1 (2:02:13 AM): then attacked with the amry i brought over
xxprogressxx (2:02:21 AM): for this strategy im comming up with, it would probably be better if you were tje mongols or huns
HearTheStaticof1 (2:02:21 AM): and backed it up with conqusitadoes
xxprogressxx (2:02:31 AM): i was watching a little of it
xxprogressxx (2:02:52 AM): and used horse archers rather than conquistadors
HearTheStaticof1 (2:03:01 AM): ?
HearTheStaticof1 (2:03:20 AM): ok so i'm going to be the huns
HearTheStaticof1 (2:03:31 AM): and make a butt load of horse archers
xxprogressxx (2:03:41 AM): you could make a lot more horse archers faster than conquistadors
HearTheStaticof1 (2:03:46 AM): yeah
xxprogressxx (2:04:03 AM): because you dont have to wait for a castle, and can build like 5 archery ranges
xxprogressxx (2:04:23 AM): and they both are good at getting villies
HearTheStaticof1 (2:04:50 AM): should i still be the spanish and just make those archers instead of beging the huns or who ever?
xxprogressxx (2:05:18 AM): huns have better horse archers, but if you want to be the spanish so you can use the cqs later thats fine
HearTheStaticof1 (2:05:57 AM): yeah i think i'll do that because i'll try to get into the castle age to make some of them as i'm using my archers
xxprogressxx (2:06:09 AM): and in this strategy, you should shoot through fuedal
HearTheStaticof1 (2:06:32 AM): /
HearTheStaticof1 (2:06:33 AM): ?
xxprogressxx (2:06:39 AM): build 32 villies in dark, (16f,12w,4g,4s)
xxprogressxx (2:06:55 AM): then as soon as you get to fuedal, build your buildings then advance to castle
xxprogressxx (2:07:11 AM): dont research anything or build any vilies or units in fuedal
HearTheStaticof1 (2:07:31 AM): ok
xxprogressxx (2:07:48 AM): then as soon as you get to castle, all villies and horse archers
xxprogressxx (2:07:57 AM): want to try it now?
HearTheStaticof1 (2:08:07 AM): yeah hold on let make sure we have this right
HearTheStaticof1 (2:08:20 AM): don't start building archers till castle?
xxprogressxx (2:08:40 AM): you cant buikld horse archers till castle
HearTheStaticof1 (2:08:46 AM): oh ok
HearTheStaticof1 (2:08:49 AM): got ya
HearTheStaticof1 (2:09:01 AM): yeah lets go for it
xxprogressxx (2:09:19 AM): and make sure you build a stable and research the mounted unit techs, because they help horse archers too

23 MPH

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 00:27:28 GMT

Im very bored. I just got done riding the mountain bike. I love that thing. It has a cool little computer thing on it. I went 7.4 miles, for 31 minutes or so. My average speed was 13 MPH or so and my max speed was 23 MPH. That thing is so neat. Now im thinking about what to do. I'm probably going to play Age of Empires, like I always do. I'm trying to get a game of Carrolwood Volleyball on for tommorow; probably me and chong vs. jessie and jake. Or girls vs. boys. But Jessica would proabably end up missing Jake if he were on the other side of the net for so long.

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 19:26:47 GMT

I really need to update.

Well, everybody knows that i got kicked out of Ocean City. That was so worth it. Dan and Vinny... we need to party sometime and you guys need to make more jungle juice. I STILL have poision ivy from my run through the bushes.... that part sucks.

I think im unofficially the Spud champion of the world. I've won every game, and came in second once. Im about to petition to make it an olympic sport. Anybody want to play?

I just got back from camping. that was fun. We played some serious volleyball. Jessica got tackled by a 4'10" 200 pound 7 year old dubbed "the godfather." It was probably the funniest thing i have ever seen. Amanda and i played Jessica and Chong in an intense Volleyball tournament. After winning the first game, Amanda and i lost 3 in a row, to lose the tournament 3-1. Chong's an intimidating server, what can i say?

On to the dentist. I am terrified...

Wed, 05 May 2004 20:43:15 GMT

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You r Odin,Violant....and dark... you are
poweful..and theres nothing better then
stabbing you'r sword through a mortals weak
body.... no one gets in you'r way.....

What FF Summon are You?
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Wed, 05 May 2004 20:41:24 GMT

The creative kid! (Artist,musician,writer)

What High school group kid are you?
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Wed, 05 May 2004 20:31:18 GMT

Morpheus

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Wed, 05 May 2004 20:27:30 GMT

Ghost or spirit: You are a lost soul. Very calm and
sweet, you are often the one who asks: What if?
With a clever mind, you want to explore the
world on a different level. Without the
answers, you aren't ready to move on. You are
most likely very creative and find yourself
thinking things through on a different level.
(please rate my quiz)

**Where will you go when you die?**(now with pics)
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Wed, 05 May 2004 20:25:34 GMT

Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)

What Emotion Dominates you?
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Tue, 27 Apr 2004 03:49:30 GMT

i didnt write that last one, in case you were wondering

Sat, 17 Apr 2004 04:36:33 GMT

Its definetly time for another journal entry.

My life has definetly gotten more interesting in the last few weeks. That is mostly because of Casey. I can even begin to name all the stuff we have done, but the list includes:

1) Driving all the way to Justin's house in the middle of the night
2) Playing badmiton in the Target parking lot
3) Getting my ass kicked in bowling and skiball
4) Seeing the movie the whole ten yards
5) Pimping out a Denny's after work (about1 am, in red and kahki)
6) Waking around the mall and ave. a thousand times

so yeah, thats all i can remember right now. this girl is one good egg. and things arent wierd when we say goodbye anymore!

ive hung out with jeff a lot the past two days. he made me feel like a girl playing ddr and we wrote the begining of a song.

i think im going to write one of my crazy political speals in a few days, im jst not in the mood right now.

and i apologize for the poor spelling. i am teaching myself to type without looking at the keys.

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 08:27:28 GMT

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life

I ripped out
His throat
And called you on the telephone
To take off
My disguise
Just in time to hear you cry
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time

Singin'...

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight

There was
Police and
Flashing lights
The rain came down so hard that night and the
Headlines read
A lover died
No tell-tale heart was left to find when you...

You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
The night he died
You mourn the death of your bloody valentine
One last time

Singin'...

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight

Tonight

He dropped you off, I followed him home
Then I, I stood outside his bedroom window
Standing over him, he begged me not to do
What I knew I had to do cause I'm so in love with you

Oh, my love
Please don't cry
I'll wash my bloody hands and
We'll start a new life
I don't know much at all
I don't know wrong from right
All I know is that I love you tonight
Tonight

Wed, 07 Apr 2004 03:35:02 GMT

So today was cool.

I woke up around 10:00, and i think i wandered around the house for a little bit. Then i went on the eliptical maching for 25 minnutes, and watched the Metallica St. Anger DVD. I think that cd is very underrated. Its not metallica's best work, but it still isnt bad. Then i called Casey, and made plans to go bowling around 100.

So i get there nice and early, and i find that it seems like i am the only person there under tha age of 60. Later some younger people and Casey showed up, which made me a bit more comfotable. Then, we ended up playing 3 rounds of bowling. I got my ass kicked two of them, and the third i won by like 6 points. I figured out im actually better left handed, though not much better. Then we walked around the mall and the avenue, talked a lot, figured out we both like cocoa butter hand lotion the best. Afterwards, we went to outback and had some good hamburgers.

Then i went home. Brett and i were going to go to the mall, but i didnt feel like it, so he came over my house. And as we are talking, justin and corey are playing whiffle ball and i wish i was there to show them whose boss.

So i had a great time today.

I wish i could have called it a date.

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 00:04:49 GMT

Well, i really dont have anything to say, but some people are bugging me to update. Well, yesterday (saturday), i had a lot of fun at work. Brandon and i just made fun of things and discussed my future movie career. Then, i went home and took a nap. Shortly thereafter, i got my ass kicked by matt davis on yahoo chess. i really suck at chess. I think i am on about a 15 game winning streak. seriously.

Then i went over amanda's house. we got in her jacuzi, which is the shit, then went to taco bell. i played her guitar a lot. i am going to marry that guitar. if i could put a heavier pickup in the bridge, i think i might have an orgasm.

Today, i went to work. I ended up being an hour late because of the whole clock thing. people laughed at me. then i spent the whole day waiting to take my lunch break with casey. that was fun. she is a groovy chick. then i went home, slept, and played a lot of Call to Power, and typed this. I might play football tomorow if it isnt too cold.

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 22:19:55 GMT

Political Survey

Say whatever you think of the issue

1. Do you think technology has made humans better or worse off?
I partially agree with the Unabomber. I think that technology and society today has lead to decreased individualism and social interaction, but that can be avoided, if you try your best to remember to just go out and have fun.
2. Do you support gun control?
I support the ban of automatic weapons, but I believe that people should be allowed to carry handguns on them, if they pass safety test and have clean records.
3. What do you think of the environment?
I think the environment should be protected at all costs, and the government should put a lot more money into developing alternate energy sources and new methods of cleaning pollution, rather than making what we do have, like combustion engines and gasoline, cleaner.
4. What do you think of space exploration?
I think it should stay where it is. It shouldn’t be cut, but there are other issues that should come first.
5. How do you feel about abortions?
I support abortions. The world is already overpopulated, the kid would have a shitty life, and it is only a mass of cells, not a person.
6. How do you feel about Iraq?
I supported it, but in retrospect I think we made the country a lot worse, not any better.
7. Would you vote for Bush in November?
Yes. I am politically neutral, but I like him better than Kerry.
8. What do you think of gay marriages?
I like the gay union idea.
9. What do you think of the public school system?
School is so inefficient. So much time is wasted to try to get us to learn things that do not really matter to us. It could really be reformed.
10. What about the death penalty?
I think better use could be found for convicted criminals. If there wasn’t any doubt, I would be for it, but there always is doubt. And there are some crimes worse than death.
11. Religion?
I agree with Percy B. Shelley on this one. Every man should explore his own spirituality, and not conform to some age-old tradition.
12. Legalization of Marijuana?
I support it. Its not that bad, anyone that wants it can get it, so might as well let the govt. and pharmacists make money off of it, rather than drug dealers and Columbians.
13. Drunk Driving Laws?
They should be much stricter.
14. The tax system?
The tax system should be fairer. The rich is taxed too much. I think the system should be progressive, but not as progressive as it is now.
15. The justice system?
I think the police force should be doubled. Crime is such a huge problem in our society, as opposed to other nations. The police force should be run more like the military, and punishments should be tougher. Of course, we should make sure that our constitutional rights are still respected.

I may add more later.

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 21:09:28 GMT

i forgot to mention that jess and i completely pimped out a nursing home yesterday. and we lifted a fork. we are the toughest gangsters on this side of harlem.

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 21:06:26 GMT

"slushpuppie04: when are you going to update your goddamn livejournal?"

Yes, i guess it is about that time.

I would update, but i really dont have anything to say. My life has been pretty boring lately. I havent really done anything, and i dont have anything to complain about, so what is there to write.

I just finished my SIP powerpoint. I thought i would be working on it all night, and im already finished. I guess when it sucks tomorow, you will all know why. Operation Arctic Eagle begins tomorow. That involves completely sabatoging Nicholes presentaition. Davis and i are going to make her get a bad grade on something before we graduate.

There was a guy at the NHS induction rehearsal whose last name was Assliner. At least thats what it sounded like. I thought it was funny, but Katie and Tina were about to die. I cant wait until we're on stage in front of everybody else and Hilda says it.

So far today, ive only consumed 100 calories. And thats including drinks. Im still fat though.

Id like to thank everybody for the strong turnout on my survey about a week back. I think im going to make another one in a few days about everybodies political viewpoints.

I have to work like 7 of the next 8 days.

Speaking of work and political issues, i have the worst luck of all time when it comes to women. I'll just leave it at that. How come whenever anything really bad happens to me, especially with women, i find it very funny and it puts me in a good mood?

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 21:38:25 GMT

its not like you have anything better to do...
do it in a comment

01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. how well do you think you know me:
06. tell me one good thing about myself:
07. do i believe in God:
08. when you first saw me what was your impression:
09. my age:
10. birthday:
11. my favorite band at the moment:
12. colour eyes:
13. do i have any siblings:
14. have you ever had a crush on me:
15. what's one of my favorite things to do:
16. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
17. anything super special about me:
18. would you consider me a friend:
19. describe me in 3 words:
20. if there were one good nickname for me what would it be:
21. name 5 things i love:
22. do you think i'm good looking:
23. how would you describe me to someone:
24. have we kissed:
25. would you ever date me:
26. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
27. do you think i'm funny:
28. do you think i'm a bitch:
29: do you think i'm annoying:
30: do you think i'm stupid:
31: what do you like most about me:
32: have you ever seen me with my pants off:
33: have you ever seen me cry, if so when?:
34: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
35: have we ever gotten in a fight:
36: have we ever got drunk together:

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 21:37:54 GMT

You are WILD AND CRAZY KIDS. You couldn't get
through life without a little fun... or a neon
colored t-shirt. You are a team player and
really into Omar Gooding. GO YOU!

Which old school Nickelodeon show are you?
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Fri, 19 Mar 2004 21:31:50 GMT

Heavy metal! You rock! It's mostly about the
music instead of lyrics for you...but you
channel most of the emotion through the lyrics!
Mosh pit for you! Just be careful you don't
give yourself a concussion with so much
headbanging...

What genre of rock are you?
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Thu, 18 Mar 2004 21:38:48 GMT

Here is another thing that sucks about the world, while i am at it. It feels like modern society is making us all more alienated from each other.

First, lets think of basic social behavior. The way it is in our world, you are only alowed to be very close to one member of the opposite sex. This is very hard to explain, but easy to understand once its understood. Say, for example, that there were 3 girls, all of whom i liked a lot. I have two choices- i can either get close to one of them, and ditch the rest, or just be friends with all 3. As soon as you get close to a member of the opposite sex, for some reason it becomes necessary that you must have a relationship. And once you have a relationship, you cant be close to any other girls. So, you have to either choose to be close to one girl, or not be close at all to three. And when i say close, i dont mean that your in a relationship or having sex or anything. Im not saying we should have three wives. What im saying is that as soon as you get really close to a member of the oposite sex (ie, you can tell them anything, how you are feeling all the time, you understand each other), a relationship is expected. Im not saying that it is impossible to be close to more than one member of the opposite sex, our society just discourages it.

Thats the thing i hate about love. It is expected that you only love one person your entire life. That idea is completely rediculous. The way i see it, you love everybody, but just to a certain degree. It is not like you only love one person, you just may love that person more than everyone else. Once again, i am not saying that we should have multiple wives, i am simply saying that it is very wrong that we tell ourselves that we should only love one person.

And friendships between guys- that is another story. we all know that it is very hard for guys to discuss serious matters. for whatever reason, it isnt manly to discuss what is truly on your mind and shoow any weakness to other guys. therefore, we dont.

so, basicly, i am only allowed to be close to one girl, and i am gay if i am close to any guys. that sucks. you are only allowed to be close to one person, and that is wrong.

An example might help make my point clearer. There is a girl that i was good friends with. Then, she told me she wanted to be closer to me. At that point, i liked her and would have liked to have been closer to her, but i didnt want to be in a relationship with her. Unfortunately, if i got closer, i would have to be in a relationship. its the rules of our society. so, in order to make it clear that i didnt want to be in a relationship with her, i was an asshole and avoided her. So, in summary, i said i wanted to be closer to her, but i was an ass to her because i didnt want to be close to only her. Unfortunatly, i have to be close to only her, because thats the way our society works.

and i also feel the thing mentioned above happening to me. there is someone i really like, and i feel like she is not getting close to me, because she doesnt want to be in a relationship. i would be fine not being in a relationship, but for whatever reason i think that she thinks that that is all i am after. so, i cant be friends with her because i lke her more than she likes me. it is so unfair. but i guess thats just the way it goes.

i feel like i havent explained myself at all. if i confused you, the moral of the story is that i wish guys and girls could be good friends without things getting wierd.

Thu, 18 Mar 2004 20:50:04 GMT

Ive really felt pretty blah lately. I am not really depressed per se, but rather just simply exausted. I am so sick of everything right now. I am so sick of working all the time. I actually dont mind being at work, but because i have to work till 11 i am always tired, and i never get to hang out with my friends. I am sick of the same old boring crap in school. we never learn anything meaningful. Most of all, i am sick of the weather. i hate the cold with a passion. it is the cold that makes me lazy, i think. i could be outside now, hitting golfballs running around in the woods, but instead i am sitting on the computer complaining about myself because it is too cold to go outside. and its not even that cold, i just hate it so much.

i never have any motivation anymore. i dont really mean in school, because i dont care about school; i can still get good enough grades without trying. i really want to get in shape- bad- but im too lazy too. I think the weather is partially to blame, and work too. If i didnt have to work all the time and it wasnt cold o would go outside and excersize. also, socially, i am getting lazy. i never feel like hanging out with anybody anymore. there are several people that i would like to get to know better, but i am just too exahsted to care anymore. i feel like i really dont have any close friends. things are just way too wierd with amanda, which sucks, because she has always been the one who was there for me. but no matter what, we cant be normal. everybody else either works or plays a sport, or doesnt care enough to want to make the effort to hang out. on top of that, i work a lot too.

i am also starting to think that no matter what i do, it is going to get worse. it seems like most people spend all thier time working, to make the next stage in thier life better, and the next thing they know, theyre dead. for example, now i am working my ass off so i can pay off my car and have spending money for college. i am also preparing for college in school. so basicly, i never have any time now, because of college. in college, i will never have any time, because i will be studying a whole lot, and will be preparing for my career. when i finally get out of college, i will be 25 (grad school), and will have already past the best years of my life. too bad i already would have spent most of them with a book and a computer. then, i will be working my as off, to prepare for my children's future and my retirement. finally, i will retire, and have a few short years to actually enjoy myself. but by then, i would be completely out of shape, and wont even be able to get an erection without medicine.

what im trying to say is, i think we are all working way too hard for what its worth. we are giving our lives away (actaully, mr gere is taking my life away) for no reason. we continue to give our lives away to make our lives better in the future, but if we keep doing that for so long, we will have no future. this world sucks in that aspect.

i hate the feeling that i have no control over my own life. i am going to go to college for eight years, become an engineer, marry, have 2 kids, and die. there is no room for fun or adventure. i know that if i go along with the plan above, things will be alright, but they wont be great. maybe if i took a gamble, and tried to become a rock star, or joined the military, or actually went along with what i really want to do and became a cop, things could be awesome. they could also suck. but i know i am not going to take that gamble, when things could turn out better. i hate the way this world thinks that money= happiness. The only point in going to college for more years and studying harder, and giving my life away to higher education, is so that i will one day make more money. basicly, i am giving away my early years, so i make more money in my later years, when i am too tied down with a career and kids to enjoy it. i hate that fact, but no matter what, i know its not going to change.

i really feel like i have no freedom. nobody in our society does. we all are forced to go to public school. we are forced to either study very hard, and then to either go on to college or get a shitty job. most people nowadays will choose the higher education, so they are forced to study even harder for 4 more years, where they will then get a job when they are forced to work exactly 40 hours a week, monday through friday, 9 to 5. and in that job, you still have no freedom. you have to answer to a boss, and do your work exactly as the company sees fit. there is very little room for personal freedom. basically, we are free in our spare time, but we have so little spare time that it doesnt matter.

we live in a society where individuality is completely destroyed. We are all traied to all want to be the same thing, and strive for the same goals. People think it is rediculous that i would rather join the military and get a decent paying job, rather that go to college and get a high paying job. i would so much rather do what i want as a career than do what i hate, but pays well. but when i suggest that people attack me because "i am so much better than that." "i am so much better than that" because i value my own free will and desires over money? "i am so much better than that" because i do not care about how much money i make if i am doing what i like?

the more i think about, what i am doing is the best option. but all the options suck. thats just the way the world is. i would so much rather have been and indian. i would love to spend all day running around the woods, hunting deer. but instead, the best option is to give away my youth to calculus and economics. i have to spend so much time learning and studying things i have no interest in, so i can earn a good bit of money when i get older. but when im older, i will have a job where i wont have the freedom to do what i want with my money. no matter what, it is going to suck.

shit

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 21:21:45 GMT

Today is the worst day of all time. I could not keep myself awake at all in Economics, Calculus, and Health. I was up late last night cleaning out my closet and reading The Lord of the Rings. Im on about page 650. I am so tired, and ive been so blah today. And im sure work is going to suck. I hope fun people are working.

My battlebot won today, so i am now 1 - 2. I also got to be in a movie! I should be a profesional movie extra.

My sister hides food under her bed. She tells me not to tell my mom, but in health i learned thats a sign of an eating disorder.

I dont think anybody is mad at me right now, which is good.